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Break-Down

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 Hi Blog! It's a Monday morning. 10:32AM.  I just paused my song playlist right now and feeling emotional. Whenever I play Billie Eilish's What Was I Made For  song, it just makes me cry. Probably because it struck me the most. Maybe I am just going thru something and can never really make me figure out where to start and be happy again. Or just maybe my hormones 'coz I have my monthly visit now on it's 3rd day.  You know the feeling when it's supposed to be a happy get-together yet you chose to be violent and unpredictable and you just hate why you have to react that way at an age of 38. F*ck.  Yesterday, I'm supposed to be on a vacation but my emotions caught me. Instead of making fight with everybody, I chose to walk out on my shorts and shirt, picked up my bag and left the place without telling everybody. My anger had me bawling while waiting for the bus in the highway. I kept wiping my tears so nobody can notice me. Good thing the bus isn't full so I sa

Mid-Life Crisis

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 Dear World,  follow me on insta I just woke up right now, 6: 46 in a Sunday morning. Leaning in my swivel chair, typing on this keyboard getting inspired to jot down stuff after series of watching random reels on Facebook.  How are you by the way? I was searching back this  blog although honestly I am no longer used to say "blog" anymore since at these times, "vlog - video blog" has been the norm ever since.  I noticed that it has been what (2024 less 2016) eight long years I haven't posted anything on this page. And a lot of things happened in that era. As usual, I want to write the highlights of those years here but I'm afraid I will lose my drive to write if I would go into details now. Maybe I will just mention it along the way if there are moments that would be a good comparison. What's most important, I would go back to writing especially if I like it just to document things I would go over with day by day.  It must be a good thing for you to know

FRUSTRATIONS

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Hello! I know it has been awhile not posting anything here! I have been battling a good fight for the past years up until now. You always know that this blog has been my consolation and not minding people to read this though since am not aiming for followers anyway. Well, lemme go back to the reason why I am here again. And that's for sure due to depression, sadness and frustrations. These drives and motivates me to write something which i don't have the guts to tell people surrounding me. And i don't want them to be bothered of my problems and anxieties either. I know each one of us face different things apart from what i am experiencing now. But the photo above reminds me to be calm during this storm. My life has always been topsy-turvy. And no matter what, i always keep myself grounded how to make this life straighten up. I am starting to lose myself! At times, i am even thinking of ending this life. Butttt,  i don't even know really. 'Til here th

Summer 2016

Every people I know craves for summer despite the escalating hot degrees outside, thank God for air-conditioned rooms though. I do have a lot of things to be grateful for this year. It has been a yo-yo year. I've got lots of responsibilities from home up to work aspect; i'm full. But somehow, i still managed the first quarter and slaying all of it with my six pair stilettos.  I could definitely remember JANUARY, after that New Year celebration, i was able to do almost all of the groceries during the holidays. By FEB, though i haven't had any romantic dates at all, i spent partying with my friends instead. It was fun. I attended a friend's wedding and went suburbs almost every weekend.  Of course March came and still can't get enough with summer as it starts. My colleagues and i hit the white sand beaches, cold and hot springs, and sunken cemetery  visits at Camiguin Island right before the holy week. Long weekend was dedicated to an exclusive quality ti

Random Day

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Hi. Let's call this another random i-love-to-write kind of day and not to mention of just waking up after a 10-minute quick nap. Before i resume working on my desk for another formal articles to submit, here i am, jotting down with you instead. Couple of months have passed and plenty of changes has been going on lately. Around July, Mom was admitted AGAIN in the hospital due to diabetic complications which resulted to her swollen feet and, thank God, she's fine now. We were discharged three days after. And around last week of July, our landlord for four years informed us the sudden grand renovation of their apartment. Of course, we only have 3 days left to look for another place to transfer in. Finally, on the 1st of July, we moved in another compound just a block across the old apartment. Well, it was great. New building, new place, new month. Everything new. Literally, the 3-storey apartment is new and in fact still under construction. I picked the 3rd floor of

2015 Travels

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I can never thank enough my job that brings me to places.  It may not be internationally but at least within Northern Mindanao. I am good at multi-tasking, FYI, and that includes juggling my monotonous work life while having fun such as photography. Of course, your companions add more colors to it and for the ones you don't like, feels like hell. Haha.  Last February 26 was my 2015 kickstart out-of-town travel related to work. I have been to Misamis Occidental before around 2011 when I and a bunch of my workmates from my previous company went to Dakak Resort  and stayed there for three days.  The only difference now in visiting Misamis Occidental was going to some far-flung areas and meet people there to conduct an orientation on programs and services. Before, i focused on a summer where white beaches lay and now focused instead on serving government programs. Ugh. Such a turned of events.  But i just wanted to enlist here my first times: My first time 7-hour publ

Struggling for Perfection

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Nobody's perfect. I have read something in the internet yesterday...wait...yeah, my horoscope. That's it! I have read that I can attract a multitude of positivity in my environment and the same goes being prone to negativity too.  Back to the 'perfection' topic. I know I ain't a good writer. Not the level of author's that bookworms get a nod at or a huge chin up for. I select articles or stories to read but i am not best in wordplay. I am just the average type of writers that get lost or lack of words to use. I get writer's block almost all the time and i definitely just laugh at my stupidity if that's what you call it. Definitely i am not a JANET EVANOVICH that engagingly writes interesting adventure stories of Stephanie Plum. What i love is just to write my journals. Haha. I aim not to impress anybody but, you know, just record my life stories and how i go about it throughout the day. In these generation of social networking sites, bas