HAPPY NEW YEAR 2025!

 January 2, 2025

Thursday9:14 PM

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Diary!

Yes, that's an exclamation point! Just wanna greet you a joyful new year of 2025! I am so glad to have thrived and survived a tremendous and humbling year - 2024. 

Just wanna share that 2024 has been so unfortunate of me. Just so you know, it has been my tradition to always check the fortunes and luck based on zodiac and I never realized  not until everything already happened and broke me. 

I know I haven't really jot down everything here on the blog on what happened but because of how unfavorable life has been for me, I came back on this site so I can pen everything.

If you look back,  have never really wrote about the good stuff I received in the previous years except whenever I am feeling down. So basically, all my happy memories are just stored on my Instagram and Youtube page. And I just thought about it now, maybe I was evil-eyed. 

2017 started all the bad things happened. I guess I already mentioned about leaving my ex for 6 years coz of cheating. I then eventually lost my government job in 2018 however i got into a US corporate telco which gave me a job even on pandemic.

Everything ran smoothly on 2018 despite my mom goes back and forth in the hospital which led her into early retirement from her government job. My current job at the time helped me with the insurance especially that she resigned before her retirement age. I paid for the bills and everything and I suddenly became a breadwinner.  Gratefully, I was able to sustain that. I paid for an apartment, electricity, water, food and even medicines for her maintenance.  I was financially capable. In fact, I had enough savings in the bank too which eventually afforded me to build my home in 2021 only after I was forced to do it coz my grandma who stayed with me during pandemic died in the apartment. We had to have a new home since my mom also wished for it. I then abruptly had to build it up which this where we're living right now. 

I was so happy and contented since then especially that i work remotely too for 2 years in the same company not until we are forced to be back onsite in 2022. It has never been the same again eversince. 2023, my Korean-American ex kept in touch since we broke up in 2020. He wanted to hang-out and probably tested the waters if we can still be back together after we mutually broke-up before pandemic. But because I thought I have gained weight, i lost my self-confidence, I self-sabotaged again. I chose my career at that time since i was promoted as a Supervisor in July 2023. My ex planned for a Cebu vacation but I didn't get back to him in August.

Didn't know that was the start of my nightmare. If only there were signs if what should have been the best decision, I could have chosen him instead of that freaking career which I don't have it now anyway. 

Back in 2020, he asked me if i can see my future with him and honestly I was just being carefree and never really  thought he was that serious. He got cold after he didn't see me reciprocating his efforts of getting flights US-KOREA-PHIL in the whole year of 2019. Our relationship was seeing each other 1-2 months in between and him flying all throughout just to see me. 

Now, what happened? I indeed got promoted but it was a hell. I was under a narcissistic manager and even had my approved leaves (i was supposed to see my ex in Cebu) cancelled so i can focus with work. He wasn't pleasant to work with. He's the worst person i know that have ever lived. Even until now, I really cannot forget although I have probably have forgiven him. I only had been 6 months under his management and i left. Unfortunately, I got into another management but the people to work with is no longer sufficed. After a year of leadership, i fell into depression hence my decision to leave the job and the company. It pushed me that far despite of my proven resiliency. They didn't honor my request to file a leave when it's been a year-long  working straight. I was going insane. Despite bagging an award as top- supervisor in all site, I was just milked to work until burnt-out. 

So now, I am choosing me. I am unemployed since Sept 2024. I was initially okay because I still have money not until I don't have incoming funds anymore. My Christmas and New Year was anyway joyful because of family and having a lot of time. Maybe this is what God answered anyway. Being unemployed for 5 months now has been the most relaxing thing that ever happened in my entire adult life. I don't have the anxiety of people now of going back to work after the holidays. 

What just left me to motivate is the finances to thrive for the upcoming months. I wish I can get one or maybe just focused on a business or why not both, right? Manifesting abundance and new life this 2025. I no longer expect lovelife but hopefully for finances and health instead.