Jenny's Spicy World

It's 4-weeks already of the said topsy-turvy relationship and believe it or not, everything went so cool and very unexpected. Okay, lemme say that i've expected quite less for my relationship with Charles to be fine. But everything we have gone through would be considered just a matter of test on a blue moon. =p  Let me just say that it started last Wednesday of him texting me first thing in the morning. I woke up with huge amazement and much to my surprise, i overwhelmingly texted him back and wasn't thinking of the 'pride' much really. All i wanted was for him to reach me and he did that. And what am i suppose to do? Ignore him? What if he's not coming back anymore? So, maybe i just did the right thing and i won't be guilty anyway with the things i thought i'm desperately holding on with. The next HUGE thing he did: Miscalled my phone after working out in the gym. And me as a girl who yearns and dies for her love to the guy, OVERWHELMINGLY ,

my new boyfriend 3-weeks old. This coming Monday will be the 4th week of me staying SINGLE. Not being attached to someone somehow gives a tad bit feeling of less guilt and a simultaneous feeling of LONELINESS romantically. The first and the second week were never easy 'cos my depression went sky high.My stress level came boiling hot, my appetite lowered and my days were so gloomy. Monotonous as it is. Now i'm in the process of getting over. I found a couple of random phrases in the net and i think such phrases helped me regain the energy I lost. Crazy it may seem but im in the stage of looking into websites for articles on ' How to Get Over a Break Up ' and surprisingly got hooked and even got the advices i wanted and needed. And the song i enclosed in this entry is the song i just fell inlove with. SIGH. Somehow, what happened to be disgracegul came out to be a blessing after all. On the other side of the scene, instead of feeling so dumb and pathetic, I po

I am now experiencing single hood life for over 13 days already. To give you the details, i'm going to point out things assumed that caused the sudden breakup. For someone undergoing such misery like mine, you can never easily get over with this. No matter how hard i try not to think about it, still it keeps on playing all over and over my head. It's so hard to reminisce the good old days with someone you expected to share the rest of your life.This sounds so cheesy but i, for one, guess if you're once in love, you will never ever think it that way. Charles was my world. He was once a bestfriend, a tutor, a dietician, a brother, a stand-up comedian when i'm down.Wherever I go, he was always there for me. I never thought of him leaving me now. Should i blame myself for all these things that happened to me? Should i be blamed?  I LOVE HIM still but despite all the efforts i gave to win him back, i think he's not appreciating it anymore.Desperate as it may seem, i

Life is a tad bit unfair. The more you're serious on things you intended and planned to be serious, numerous temptations are trying to test and break the strength you have kept for over a period of time. I know I'm too deep now but I just wanna express into writing all these stuff that keeps bugging me. There's some things we don't talk about  Rather do without And just hold the smile Falling in and out of love Ashamed and proud of Together all the while Got to meet a guy that resembles much with my current significant romantic other. *sigh* He's kind of filling in up the gap that I have with my current bf. I know this is crazy. I love my boyfriend so much but i think I'm falling for the new guy too. CRAZY . MADNESS.   Hoping you'll never ever gonna lemme go, Babe. =( 

Sundays are the best of me. Not only a rest after 6 days of work and to hear mass but it also gave time for friends and boyfriend.haha. Having a mug of milk in the morning after waking in a freezing cold weather already suffices me. Won't be complete too without the vanity pics though. And after an evening mass with friends, Boyfriend finally showed up after a soccer game and invited me for a dinner date.hahah.Unexpected it may seem but it always ends to be the BEST. Thanks, boyfriend.haha

Must be the LOVE month really! For my 22 years of living and kicking ass, I know for myself the glitz and glamour of the whole love month. It's the first Feb of having my own work, my own salary for shopping and banking, and my own Yoville world to decorate and control.hihi I have noticed that as the 14th is coming, a lot of the guys rush seldomly even for the most  immediate attractions so as not to get shoot and not to be the center-of-bully for not having a date on the special occassion. Well should we,gurls, be happy about it? LAUGH. Must be the game of love. But love i think is so precious to trifle with.

Today has been a very GRUMPY day. Am i just lacking sleep or am i just too tired of the everyday routine at work and of my life? Ugh. I don't blame anyone but i missed being ALONE. Alone in the sense of peacefulness within. Got this mixed emotions; tiresome, guilt, fear, and some are also even unidentified. Yoville, Cafe World, and Typing Maniac in Facebook will never ever ease these indefinite emotions right now. I so hate feeling the feeling that i don't even hardly understand. Ugh. SIGH. This isn't normal anymore. Do i need to consult a psychologist for such behaviour? I'm not feeling good anymore. I'm just missing the good ol' days. The less fear and less fret good old days. How i wish to turn back time and living the life I have always wanted. SIGH. And now I'm just missing my friends' company. The LAUGHS. The GOSSIPS. The CHUCKLES. I miss laughing my heart out. I miss it. :(

Over the past few days of craving for someone i wanted so badly, today has been an ALLELUIAH . Boyfriend suddenly beeped me to rush at Ketkai mall to meet him. I, honestly, got shocked and can't hardly believe. He was at a commanding mode and i'm left to do what pleases and conveniences him. It's not that i'm scared or what they call "under-the-saya" but I have thought over Charles' not in the routine of commanding unless he's really decided into it. I was left speechless and rushed to change clothes after rinsing my 3-days-soaked-blanket. I hurriedly picked up my fuschia polo top, newly bought skinny jeans (the last Christmas holiday shopping with mom) , black doll-shoe Crocs with my Mag maong bag hanged on the right shoulder and hopped on the public jeepney at the next block of my pad. I dropped at the West Concourse of the mall ( not pretty sure!) and entered National Bookstore after a quick retouch at the toilet room. I texted him to me

Eversince I was a kid, I have always been treasuring friendships and the like. Elementary days passed, Highschool days fun ended but my COLLEGE MEMORIES  will never ever be compared. Those memories and experiences merged all the levels that I had even my pre-school times. COLLEGE DAYS was a lot of fun and not just fun but all crazy things you can ever imagine. The experiences are a lot more meaningful especially with a bunch of wackos you get to tag along with ALMOST EVERYDAY. haha Yeah! I have always thanked my College friends for gracing that stage of my life 'coz I won't be who I am without them and their company. It may sound a tad bit cheesy and corny but, i guess, everything's really boils down to that if it's really that special. *To Yoda for sharing the laughs even to my corniest and "baduy-ist" joke.haha *To Tinaboi who I got to share all my emo side whenever i'm tired of joking.haha * To Leo Mar, for all the nastiest topics we shared an

Last Monday, two of my friends dragged me ('coz i was in my bed for some rest) to a shanty place just within Cagayan de Oro for some tarot card reading. My friends have told me about the lady a couple of times already when they had their reading a year ago. They were gossiping about her drop-dead-gorgeous-young boyfriend and asking how can she grabbed a handsome lad at her age. On our way there, I was a bit scared as I was thinking of the place to be DARK, DIM and DANGEROUS.haha. But, all is well and I can still write my blog. *grins* The lady who I was expecting to be wearing a veil or anything with a cloth that covers the face turned out to be the hottest and gorgeous chic I have ever seen at her age. She was in her tiger spaghetti strap top and blue jeans as we get-in her room. She was sqatting on the bed with a red silky smooth mattress. Her room was well lit up and definitely no signs of negative vibes and bad aura. Thank God. After a couple minutes of asking quest

It has been my first day of work today eversince I got okay from my 3-days in bed after suffering from a mild i-havent-consulted-the-doctor sickness. That Friday afternoon, I noticed slight tummy aches that i nearly and mostly fainted as i walk towards home. I never anticipated to get seriously ill after that 'coz i'm not the type to panic-strikes-rush-me-to-the-hospital. I prefer to stay in bed and observe things first and eventually rush in anyway.UGH. Well, that was the highlight of my January First Week. It may not that good at least some things were a blessing in disguise. Have I told you my topsy-turvy relationship with the boyfriend? Yeah that's it. I got good news for you. Late that Friday night, he visited me at my place after receiving a text from my girlfriend about my condition. He brought food, fruits and some medicines for me. Ain't that sweet,huh. Of course I'm a tad bit HAPPY with such result. At least he has proven me things which I had a co

Good thing to be working behind-the-desk is you can manage well the time in ways you're much comfortable with. Sometimes it's so inevitable to be envy with people who already have better lives even if they are the same age as yours. It's so envious that they reached that far as young as they are. However, my being envy to them doesn't count on the negative aspect. To be idle behind-the-desk can at times do good to you. Thanks to the technological world for the internet. haha. By that, i can easily stalk the great women who have inspired me a lot, A LOT. Let me introduce two women who have been my models for quite sometime. Not only about fashion statement models but as for being goal-oriented, objective, God-fearing and letting me believe of reaching the impossible. Well, these ladies has been a classmate of mine with some subjects during my college days. We may not be that close but I love them both. Bottomline, i do have a lot encounters with the two. They

It's been the second week and a day that my boyfriend kept his distance. Literally, he isn't reaching to me even through texts and moreover always a NO-SHOW. For those who read this, you might say you're sick with all my tatterings but i'm sick TOO with all of these. But late last night, miraculously, i got a text from him asking how i was. For sure, if you're in my situation, you'll wind up on how to react with it. It's been weeks since he has in touch and should i play hard-to-get? haha. Blame me on the loose. Just a thought. " Never FEED a guy because he might end up getting FED up."

CRAP! My apologies! I was at the verge of publishing an entry of my blog prior to what I'm writing now but I mistakenly clicked the PUBLISH POST and haven't thought of clicking the SAVE NOW first. Ugh! I thought it would immediately post the entry I was typing to even if I'm not saving it. UGH again . The entry was actually a fresh mind-heater that I had eversince this morning and I was tempted and convinced to put it into paper...errr...into monitor rather. Oh how I wish Blogspot.com will have an undo portion of it. Wait, did I say UNDO? uhm...Yeah. I was trying to retrieve the entry by doing the UNDO and REDO stuff like that. But, CRAP, there's nothing changed. Hmpf. Not my luck. Or, perhaps, destiny won't let me post that one.LAUGH. Well, let me gather my thoughts once again and for me to remember what I had written on my entry verbatimly. LESSON LEARNED: Better be cautios in deciding on things 'coz some of it can never get back the way you wanted them