Jenny's Spicy World

Dear Jay-anne,  You are now 38. You've come a long way but why do you still miss your old and young self? That one reel you just watched a few seconds ago about writing a letter to your young self triggered you to write her on this blog while tears streaming down.  How are you? I am happy you enjoyed grade school to college days. When you reach the 35s, it's not so happy here anymore. You constantly question your decisions in life. I don't know but the ones on the reels, it supposed to be positive yet I ended up more what ifs now.  What if back in 2013-2014, you gave your your first ex's comeback a chance and eventually agreed to fly with him and live in Canada after college? What could have been your life right now? I know at that time, you no longer love him as a boyfriend and only sees him as a friend since you had the cop as your 3rd and current lover at that time whom you never ended up right now anyway. Remember that the first ex mailed you at your 1st job's o...

  Hi! It has been 5 months since I quit the job.  It never felt liberating yet frustrating at the same time. I never thought I'd be feeling depressed now that I thought that I have been longing for this ever since anyway. You know what I mean? I prayed to take a break from working so long since 2009. Imagine,  straight 16 years. You cannot blame me for wishing to be at least relaxed and find time for myself.  I don't know if this is part of having existential or midlife crisis 'coz I can still remember wishing to retire at 40 but I'm supposed to have 2 years more since I am still 38. Too early, right?  Looking back, seems like prayer and manifesting are true.  Back in college, I don't miss praying everyday as I arrive at the university. I drop at our campus chapel and pray to at least experience graduating with flying colors. Guess what, i became a dean's lister at 1st quarter of my senior year.  3 months after graduation, i prayed to get a job so I ca...

 January 2, 2025 Thursday9:14 PM Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii Diary! Yes, that's an exclamation point! Just wanna greet you a joyful new year of 2025! I am so glad to have thrived and survived a tremendous and humbling year - 2024.  Just wanna share that 2024 has been so unfortunate of me. Just so you know, it has been my tradition to always check the fortunes and luck based on zodiac and I never realized  not until everything already happened and broke me.  I know I haven't really jot down everything here on the blog on what happened but because of how unfavorable life has been for me, I came back on this site so I can pen everything. If you look back,  have never really wrote about the good stuff I received in the previous years except whenever I am feeling down. So basically, all my happy memories are just stored on my Instagram and Youtube page. And I just thought about it now, maybe I was evil-eyed.  2017 started all the bad things happened. I guess I alread...