Jenny's Spicy World

It's 4-weeks already of the said topsy-turvy relationship and believe it or not, everything went so cool and very unexpected. Okay, lemme say that i've expected quite less for my relationship with Charles to be fine. But everything we have gone through would be considered just a matter of test on a blue moon. =p  Let me just say that it started last Wednesday of him texting me first thing in the morning. I woke up with huge amazement and much to my surprise, i overwhelmingly texted him back and wasn't thinking of the 'pride' much really. All i wanted was for him to reach me and he did that. And what am i suppose to do? Ignore him? What if he's not coming back anymore? So, maybe i just did the right thing and i won't be guilty anyway with the things i thought i'm desperately holding on with. The next HUGE thing he did: Miscalled my phone after working out in the gym. And me as a girl who yearns and dies for her love to the guy, OVERWHELMINGLY ,

my new boyfriend 3-weeks old. This coming Monday will be the 4th week of me staying SINGLE. Not being attached to someone somehow gives a tad bit feeling of less guilt and a simultaneous feeling of LONELINESS romantically. The first and the second week were never easy 'cos my depression went sky high.My stress level came boiling hot, my appetite lowered and my days were so gloomy. Monotonous as it is. Now i'm in the process of getting over. I found a couple of random phrases in the net and i think such phrases helped me regain the energy I lost. Crazy it may seem but im in the stage of looking into websites for articles on ' How to Get Over a Break Up ' and surprisingly got hooked and even got the advices i wanted and needed. And the song i enclosed in this entry is the song i just fell inlove with. SIGH. Somehow, what happened to be disgracegul came out to be a blessing after all. On the other side of the scene, instead of feeling so dumb and pathetic, I po

I am now experiencing single hood life for over 13 days already. To give you the details, i'm going to point out things assumed that caused the sudden breakup. For someone undergoing such misery like mine, you can never easily get over with this. No matter how hard i try not to think about it, still it keeps on playing all over and over my head. It's so hard to reminisce the good old days with someone you expected to share the rest of your life.This sounds so cheesy but i, for one, guess if you're once in love, you will never ever think it that way. Charles was my world. He was once a bestfriend, a tutor, a dietician, a brother, a stand-up comedian when i'm down.Wherever I go, he was always there for me. I never thought of him leaving me now. Should i blame myself for all these things that happened to me? Should i be blamed?  I LOVE HIM still but despite all the efforts i gave to win him back, i think he's not appreciating it anymore.Desperate as it may seem, i